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Monday, May 19, 2014

In the beginning

9:53 PM

For Christmas (yes, I know it was 6 months ago) one of my favorite people in the whole wide world made me and my daughter matching aprons.  Totally the best thing ever.  I was so happy, I was going to send her a pic of us wearing them.


When I saw this photo I was horrified.  Hor-ri-fied!!!!!!  Sure it's a bad angle (photographs should be taken from slightly above, this is from below) but that doesn't account for how wide I am.  I never sent it.  Instead, I sent one of the baby solo.

The me I see in the mirror doesn't match what's shown above.  I obviously think a little too highly of myself because me in the mirror is at least 30 pounds lighter.  I said I was getting my life together.  I was going to lose 50 pounds before my birthday.  And I did right for a couple of days and then went right back to eating my feelings.  My feelings are bad and they must be punished with food.

I restarted in February.  Same pep talk, this time with photographic evidence of my scale bending weight

Same thing.  I did right for a couple of weeks max, then went back to self medicating.  In fact, I was super happy when I found a lunch spot with a giant slice of pizza and a pop for less than $4.  That wasn't a good thing.

A month or so ago, the husband and I went to a wedding.  We had a nice time, I even wore a dress.  And then we stood really far apart when we embraced because of the 9 months of fat I am close to delivering.


This is the beginning of my weight loss journey.  I deserve better than this.  So does my family.  It's time for me to do better.

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6 comments:

  1. Awwww! You guys look so cute! Both sets of "you guys"! :)

    You've GOT this. One meal at a time.

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  2. I agree...one meal at a time and prioritize yourself as much as you can. Find something you love to do. I'm feeling that blue dress with the cardigan tho.....you know I love a good cardigan...

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    1. I seriously have that cardigan in another print and a color. I'm so bad at buying the same thing in multiple colors. I need Stacy & Clinton in my life. LOL

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  3. I feel the same way! I hate how wide I have gotten and the constant starting and stopping of my weight loss journey. Keep pushing sister. We are in this together.

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    1. I'm glad we're on the journey together! We can do this!

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