I almost gave up today. Almost.
- The thing that I'm waiting on didn't come through
- There was a bank error that was not in my favor
- People weren't where they were supposed to be
And for a moment, I was really close to saying I quit. I can't do this anymore, I'm not going to try. For a while I allowed myself to feel the entire burden I'm carrying and didn't fight it. For far too many minutes I let every bad thing overwhelm me.
For a little while, I was ready to do the most dramatic wall slide in the history of wall slides and then just lay on the floor twitching occasionally. It seemed like a good idea. I was tired. And that's what you do when you're tired. You go sit down.
But then. I got it together. I handled my business, I kept moving forward. Failure is not an option. Giving up is not an option. Laying down and allowing the world to run me over isn't going to work.