One of my biggest character flaws is a difficulty asking for help. In fact, the majority of my "oops" moments have been a result of me not seeking help when I should have.
It's like I have a running tape in my head that's telling me:
-You are the only one that is looking out for you
- When push comes to shove, you've got to be in your own corner
- No one is going to help you
- You've got to stand on your own
- You carry your own burdens
I've done a decent job of turning that sound track down. I won't lie and say that I've muted it, but it's there and I have really good hearing.
Today I was caught off guard by someone else's truth about me. No necessarily THE truth, but their truth. And it stung. Well, that's putting it mildly, it burned.
I promptly turned that sound track back up. And I don't think it's a bad thing. That says a lot. I'm not as reformed as I thought. And maybe reformation isn't always a good thing.