I had a really good weekend diet-wise. Well, maybe semi-good is a better way to put it. Or maybe "aiight" is the best way to say it. I did aiight. I haven't been as focused as I need to be, and part of that is due to my very unhealthy, very bad, not good relationship with food. Some people have a shoe addiction, I have a food addiction.
Sad? Let's eat
Happy? Let's eat
Headache? Let's eat
Feeling fine? Let's eat
I comfort eat for sure! In fact, when I think I'm going to have a bad day, I like to "pre-medicate"with something fatty and delicious (Whoppers for breakfast anyone?) so that I'm equipped to handle things. If I truly think about it, it is not much different than any other drug of choice.
Problem is, you can't totally break up with food. I could break up with fast food, but that doesn't really address the issue. I could break up with fried food, but again, that doesn't get to the root of the problem. I've got to come up with better coping mechanisms, I have to establish a routine for those moments when I am super stressed. Food isn't going to make a project I'm working on less boring, or make the reasons for my stress disappear. That good feeling I get, that "high" is temporary. And when it is over, things are the way they were and I'm more broke and bloated.
I did not go to BWWs today for lunch. I ate my Lean Cuisine and kept it moving. Self control is important, and every day I'm getting stronger and making better decisions. I've got a long way to go, but baby steps are steps in the right direction nonetheless.