There are so many lessons I learned this year, I couldn’t let the year end without a post.
This was my first full year as a mommy. That alone has changed me so much. I know there will be a time when I look forward to “alone” time. It hasn’t happened yet. I feel weird when we’re not together. She’s my little roadie, and every moment that I have with her I cherish. I still feel guilty that I’m away for so long during the week, even though I have an awesome sitter. She’s the reason why it’s easy for me to say “no”, because she’s top priority.
Anyone that tells you that marriage isn’t work is a liar and an idiot. We’ve managed to adapt to being parents and still having time for one another. I know that 2013 is going to present some challenges for us. But as long as we keep God first and followed by our marriage we can get through anything. It won’t be easy, but nothing worth having ever is.
I’m a logical thinker. If you hear yourself saying “I feel like” a lot, you are not a logical thinker. You think with your feelings and I have no idea how your brain works. There’s a very good chance that while you are speaking I am confused. Or I am thinking that your brain is stupid. I’ve worked very hard to respect other people’s feelings even when they make no sense at all whatsoever to me. Those are their feelings and they are entitled to them, even when their feelings are stupid. And I’ve learned (or am learning) not to tell people that I think their feelings are dumb.
Life is so short. This year people I know have lost spouses, babies, parents, siblings. It’s so easy to think that it can’t happen when you’re young (relatively speaking). We’re old enough to be done with the dumb stuff, but not old enough for health issues right? Nope, turns out (big surprise I know) that we’re neither. Life is so short, and it can be over in an instant. The best we can do is live the best lives we can. I always hold my daughter a little extra at night because I know someone else doesn’t have the option to do that for her babies, and you never know.
For next year...
There’s going to be a change in my household, we know it’s coming and we’re mostly ready to deal with it. Life doesn’t always end up the way you planned, but that doesn’t mean the detour takes you to a bad place. I look forward to watching my baby grow, to being a better wife, to growing in friendships, to maturing in my career. I look forward, to moving forward.